This is getting to be old hat by this point: Our connection just keeps getting better and better. I’m feeling all kinds of new pressure sensations with more movement to them; very gentle, like soft lips, skin, and hair. I need to be really careful talking to Catherine, or just thinking about her, in public as a simple non-sexual thought directed towards her will trigger arousal. God damn! Now I have to readjust to this heightened level of attention all over again.
Work has been kicking my ass. I’m cycling every day, working in freezers, stressing the hell out of the nerves in my arms. This is all just more motivation to get my real job on the road. Study, study, study!
Waking up this morning brought about a very clear audible manifestation. I heard what sounded like a group of girls giggling to my left. I was laying on a couch, trying to rest. “Get outta here, you fuckwits.” I said. This only made them laugh more and get closer. I could feel Catherine on top of me, but I couldn’t see anything. “I’m going to blow him.” A beautiful seductive voice said to my left. Then I woke up to the delicious attention as promised.
A few of you have asked me to comment on the Lilith novel by J. R. Salamanca. There’s also a movie which I’ve watched about half-way through. To be frank, I don’t see a connection between the Lilith Arthur character in the book and the Catherine/Lilith I know. Perhaps the sensual aspects, but not the sociopathic elements. Catherine doesn’t cause problems or suffering for the sake of her amusement, as the Lilith character in the book was depicted doing. Also, I just get a bad vibe from the writing style in general. Sorry, it’s just not my thing and these flat depictions simply don’t hold a candle to what being embraced by a loving demon is actually like.
Good to see your doing well and progressing and big freezers are a bitch for most peoplr dont worry
Glad I’m not the only one having problems with my ladies in public. Yeah, a single thought of them is enough to grab their attention. It’s a cute gesture. Honestly, I wouldn’t be surprised if you managed to attract the attention of more than one Succubus. They often work better in groups, believe me. Majority of the information online depicts Succubi as either sociopathic or psychotic by nature. Now I’m sure that rains true in some but most times they’re just loving and very friendly by nature, sexual yes but that’s why they’re classified as sex spirits.
Had a nice and thought out comment…then crash. So here is shorter version. Good to hear you are getting settled in nicely btw. Regarding hearing our angels,I found a EA Koetting video titled “How to Envoke Spirits to full appearance – full seminar” very interesting. Watching it encouraged me to be more meditative and I began to learn why my angel seems to “put me to sleep” because the in between is where the communication and senses are really keen. I have since been able to prolong falling completely asleep or bounce in and out and have seen / heard things like being in a dream, but with the clarity of having your full, wakeful conscious mind as well as the real world around you overlapped.
Yeah, I know what you’re talking about. Eric calls it the Theta-Gamma Sync; a state of consciousness that allows us to easily peer into that “other world” and be able to stay awake for it. My description of the girls gathered near my sofa was essentially me passing through that phase upon waking. Being able to easily slip into that state is the key to being successful with spirit evocation and all other kinds of magickal practices.
Please answer me this because I’m really curious. It caught my attention that you wrote “Catherine/Lilith I know” in this post. Has Catherine ever called herself/presented herself as Lilith to you? Or did you mean that neither Catherine nor Lilith (two separate individuals) are like that fictional Lilith?
I could be wrong about this, but I feel that my Catherine is linked with Lilith. Kind of like an avatar. There’s a chance that I’ve been getting a pretty good idea of what Lilith is like through Catherine. The apple doesn’t fall far from the tree. That’s my reasoning. With that being said, I’ve never had a direct interaction with Lilith where I knew with absolute certainty that it was her. It could’ve just been Catherine manifesting more powerfully.
Did you ever feel the need to call Catherine by the name of Lilith? Like a magnetic pull of some kind?
I can’t say that I have, no.