Things have been going well between Catherine and me, but Sara has been elusive lately. She is quite different from Catherine, insomuch that she doesn’t remain with me 24/7. Lately, she has been coming back less and less. Catherine feels some sadness about this, too. I’m really not sure what’s going on. I haven’t been able to get Sara to tell me what she’s doing out there… Maybe she took me seriously when I said she should find a partner she could be with exclusively? I’m not being overly possessive here; I’m just concerned about her. I don’t want her to feel like she’s not welcome here. I consider her to be close family… hell, she got about as close to me as any woman can get.
Was I just a temporary fling to her? Catherine assures me that’s not the case, but I can’t help but feel a sense of responsibility for her; especially when I gave myself so intimately to her. I don’t feel used, I just feel left out of the conversation. I’d like to know how she’s doing, if she’s okay, or needs someone to talk to.
Maybe the best thing to do is stay out of the way for awhile. She’s a liberating independent spirit and I get the feeling she can only tolerate so much of the extremely close relationship that Catherine and I enjoy. We tend to smother each other and Sara might have had some trouble finding any space between us.
I understand, but I can’t help wanting to KNOW if she’s doing okay, if she’s happy. That’s all I need. If she’s working on a relationship with someone else or busy with her work, I hope she knows that I’m behind her 100%. She’s always welcome here.
I just wish I wasn’t left so confused.