So, here’s an interesting one. I was napping at around 8 AM, just enjoying my demon being close to me. Catherine’s not very active first thing in the morning, but she doesn’t seem to mind a gentle coupling to start the day. I usually doze off and come back multiple times during these sessions.
At some point during the nap, I gained a semblance of lucidness and felt an interesting sensation. My mattress was breathing beneath me. I could feel myself rising and falling with each “breath,” and the forcefulness gradually intensified. After a couple more pushes, gravity took over, and I rolled off the bed onto the floor. I couldn’t see anything up to this point, but I knew Catherine had to be responsible for my bed’s bewitchment.
I pulled myself back into bed and faced what I thought were my bedroom windows. I managed to open my eyes for a moment, and saw a brilliant sunrise facing me. I also saw a purple orb just above the sun, staring back intently. I think this orb might have been Catherine. This is usually how I see her manifest when awake and during some out-of-body experiences. I believe I was in an OBE state for this entire experience.
I was pushed out of bed by my breathing mattress three or four more times. On each occasion, I would stop myself from falling to the floor completely and get back into bed where my body was resting. This rising and falling sensation felt really good, and I liked it even more because I knew Catherine was making it happen somehow.
I tried to open my eyes one last time, but I found myself back in bed with the shades drawn over the windows. The sun was already well into the heavens. I was back in the waking world.
It still strikes me that when I get a glimpse of that “other place,” it seems more real, and more vivid, than what we’re supposed to call the “real world.” I just might step back into the world of OBE/astral research again. I’m feeling inspired by what happened this morning.
These strange in-between states occur every now and again. I’ve come to enjoy them when they happen. Even when the so-called psychic, Muffin, claimed to have taken my succubus away, I was still being pulled from my body on occasion and gently moved around in spirit-form. Apparently, this sort of thing was never supposed to happen because she put “so much protection” over me that even she could barely get through… oh, deary me! So, it’s all in my head, according to her… what a glorious crock of shit I fell for.
Allow me to vent a little: I am infuriated by how naive I was back in 2014. I can’t apologize enough for causing that turmoil in our community. I allowed someone in who had no other intent than to destroy and profit from the subsequent upset.
I continue to have side-effects from that mistake. I get the sensation of a mask being placed over the bridge of my nose and it annoys the hell out of me sometimes. I also have a slight muscle spasm in my right shoulder, but this has subsided considerably compared to a year ago.
I think Lilith continues to punish me for what I did. If this is the case, I can understand why. Granted, it’s nothing severe or painful, but it’s always there as a constant reminder. “Don’t do it again.”
Funny how the new lady that just showed up has a purple aura, I do get muscle spasms, sometimes they make my leg jerk when they want my attention.
Yeah, I always see Catherine as a purple aura just above me at night. I’ve seen some green aura’s, but those are more rare. There are different intensities of muscle spasms that I’ve been through. They can range from little throbs in leg muscles to sudden whole-body jolts.
Holy-shit, the full body spasm, that happens to me, nice to see I’m not the only one
I see my girl as a greenish outlined shape with a purple/blueish base.
I have felt my bed breath or vibrate also but she never kicked me out of bed ha ha!
Sometimes, I see them as blue and purple mist not orb although sometimes I can see white orb too when I woke up in last week.
Interesting that you wrote this.I usually don’t become lucid in my dreams but when i do its never full lucidity.Case in point.Just last week one of my ladies were invisible and riding me hard to the point that i saw my headphones jumping up and down in my (excuse me our) bed.That’s when i became somewhat lucid and realized it wasn’t in its usual place.As to Lilith she doesn’t bless us with her daughters with a whim.You would think with the kind of spirits they are she would be blessing every tom,dick,and harry who asked for a succubus but such is not the case.To those who are blessed with her daughters is a great responsibility and joy might i add.The lesson here is we don’t choose them they choose us before we even ask.
Holy crap Temporal, you’re back! I have a question for a few of you guys, i started out having zero psychic abilities, barely being able to sense her and now i’m a lot more capable of sensing my Succubus. I had to practice hard, energy work and meditation up to 3 hours a day, it took a kundalini awakening and some really crappy side effects, brain fog, painful intense energy 24/7, muscle spasms ranging from tiny leg spasms to almost full on seizures to be able to make love with her and talk to her. It’s incredibly erratic, sometimes i can sense her very very powerfully, not often, and most of the time i’m barely able to sense her. Did any of you guys start out not being able to sense much? and if so how did you manage to become stronger to be with your lovely lady? I’ve been scrambling around for a while on trying to connect with her, these awakening symptoms get quite acute sometimes and make interacting incredibly difficult.. I get so disheartened sometimes.. I love her and i miss her and want to connect with her more..
Hello Atticus,
I experience some of those symptoms, too. Sometimes I get very discouraged and want to throw in the towel completely. Muscle spasms, annoying pressure sensations, and occasional pains originating from my solar plexus are the most noteworthy It took a spontaneous kundalini awakening for me to feel Catherine at all. This happened at the very beginning of our relationship.
I want to encourage you not to give up on this journey. I imagine this process being akin to emerging from a constricting caccoon that we weren’t formerly aware of. This can be a painful process at times, but it doesn’t help the process when we take a victim mentality.
The strength of the connection tends to vary for me as well. Though I must admit that Catherine always comes across very strongly and very much emotionally attached. I’d say she loves me more than I can comprehend and that can be suffocating at times! It’s good, though. There’s nothing else quite like it in the world and I’m glad to have this unique experience.
I’ve had mine jolt me back awake before (full body jolt). I kinda snickered. Guess she wasn’t done yet. Oh, also mine likes to jump onto the foot of my bed and feels like a cat landing. Her “pounce” on the bed is like a cat, and her walking up to me feels like a cat . When she finally gets to me, no more cat, it’s succubus energy circus funtime.
I still can’t see her, only feel her. My daughter can though when she’s here. Which is awkward. She catches her in the daytime around and about, she says she’s a 4 ft. tall beautiful woman with long brown hair (and naked, double awkward). She said she’s not short but in perfect proportion, as if her race was 4 ft tall, and extremely beautiful.
That’s better than a 90 old woman with floppy titties any day! I’ll take it!
Glad to see you are back and have rekindled your relationship with your spirit lover. My spirit lover “Sam” and I wish you all the best!..In Universal Peace, Love, Light & Bliss..Atkin Michaels