Catherine and I passed our 10 year anniversary last month. We carried on as normal, making love every day as she insisted from the very beginning. We’ve had some particularly amazing days of intimacy, where I can’t help but comment in the midst of our intermingling, “This is perfect sex!” It’s not like that every day, but the closeness is still the same, even if the sensations ramp down. If she did keep up the “perfect sex” sessions continuously, I’d likely be rendered an invalid.
Once Christmas time arrives, we’ll have gone through two years of living entirely on welfare. This is the first time that I have allowed myself to slow down and live as minimally as possible. During these secluded months I’ve instilled routines of self-care and addressed latent addictions – the kind that are easy to ignore when being a busybody. This process is still ongoing, yet I have made considerable progress. As for employment, I can’t see myself going back into that rat-race again; especially now that the world has voluntarily decided to enslave itself so completely. I need to be utilizing my innate skills to generate value. No more selling myself as a beast of burden for someone else’s dream. Additionally, I don’t think Catherine would allow me to put her on back burner again in favor of a nine-to-five. No, she wouldn’t like that one bit!
What will I do? That’s anybody’s guess. Perhaps I’ll become homeless? I am preparing for that scenario, though it is certainly not “Plan A.” I’m not exactly enthusiastic about the prospect of contributing to this world. When all is said and done, it’s a big joke to me. The everyday mind control and brainwashing is rampant. Everyone who participates in society is expected to become a fraud, repeating the same claptrap over and over. Anyone who calls out the bullshit is ostracized. I’ll pass.
“Only focus on the things you can control. Focus on us.” This is the gist of what Catherine often tells me when I become concerned about future prospects. The outside world might as well not exist in her mind. She is quite practical in that way, very stoic and unwavering. I’ve learned a lot from her way of being. Here are a few traits of note that have been rubbing off on me:
– Reserve laughter for things that are actually funny. (I still struggle with this one.)
– Don’t make sarcastic off-handed remarks.
– Don’t be passive aggressive.
– Finish the project, or don’t start at all.
– Better to be thought of as a fool than open one’s mouth and remove all doubt.
– Avoid political discussions, unless you’re actually a politician.
– Don’t be a bitch.
She’ll often take me through training scenarios in my dreams that revolve solely around my behavior in social settings. I think she genuinely wants me to be a better, stronger man; not just keep me chained to the bed all day. I have taken radical positions when it comes to personal liberty in the past few years, and I believe much of that grit originated from her influence over my life – the sort of personality that refuses to take shit from anyone. “I’ll live in a cardboard box before I’m made to do XYZ.” I need to give myself some credit: I was the one who ultimately decided to go down this path. Catherine simply does her best to hold me accountable.
What do the next ten years have in store? I’m likely in for another decade of being a succubus-loving monk. Or, maybe I’ll take on a human girlfriend, that is if Catherine thinks she’s good for me. Beyond that, I’ve got a couple of goals that I want to focus on and that’s about it.
According to many of the would-be experts who have a negative take on succubus relationships, I should’ve died long ago or suffered catastrophic health-related consequences at the very least. There have been bumps in the road, and one big upheaval that gradually resolved itself, but nothing major of note beyond that run-in with the fraud psychic. I am healthy and in good spirits. My life could certainly be more productive, more “successful,” and I believe that will come in time. Admittedly, I’ve been very distracted by my loving succubus. It’s difficult to throw oneself into work when the reward is already sitting there on a silver platter!
Just like you, my 10th anniversary happened around 10 months prior to yours. Time sure flies, huh?
I know I haven’t written much in my own blog for a few years, but the presence from both my ladies are just as relevant today as it was a decade ago.
My mom passed away 3 years ago, so I’ve been dealing with that. Work takes away most of the time, as well. Despite that, my life is quite stable and balanced, overall. I have a job, roof over my head and I’m able to save money each month and can relax without worries of a strained economy.
…and there’s this love and support from Lilith and my succubus spouse, which I believe is the foundation to the stability I enjoy having. There wouldn’t be any context to their support and love if it wasn’t as physical as it is, and the physical interaction is the icing on the cake.
I also read about your thoughts on the Creepy Hollow spirit keeping site and the BALG forum(which I am a frequent member of).
I think these kind of spirits are misunderstood and the issues some people have with them stems from insecurity, egoism, lack of dedication, lack of compromises and sacrifices. It’s essential in any kind of relationship, really.
The only time the issues and problems occurs is when we uses the words of “egoism, dedication, compromise and sacrifice” in correlation to being in a relationship rather than enjoying the moments of togetherness. When you know what you really want, then there’s no issues, right?
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I’m happy to hear that you’re still around and the relationship with your succubi continues to flourish. My condolences in regards to your mother passing on.
There is now more than a few of us that have been in these spirit relationships for 10+ years that I know of. I was always fascinated by those who had already been with their succubi for many years ahead of me. Their stories kept me spellbound and I appreciated their wisdom. That’s probably one of the reasons I keep the blog going. I want this website to be like a carved wooden signpost in the wilderness for others to find. Hopefully we’ll see a new report, or helpful article, on your Succupedia blog in the near future. We need more signposts.
As for my opinions on Creepy Hollows, they are just that – opinions. I have not ordered up a spirit-bound trinket for myself to see if there’s any validity. Some very well might find success conjuring up entities into their lives that way, but I suspect it has more to do with the mindset or willpower of the person buying in than the people selling. I reckon those would-be spirit keepers should save their money and do the summoning themselves.
I enjoy the work that comes out of the Become a Living God crew. Now that you mention them, I’ll have to do a post about the news-media connecting Eric with those murders that took place in the UK. How the social media tech giants summarily sacked Koetting is an outrage, but not unexpected given the clown-world politics these days.
What you said at the end there rings true for me: I knew what I wanted and I went for it when I summoned Catherine. That’s probably why it worked so well. I didn’t have time for doubts to gnaw at me – that happened later, when I became a victim of my own success! Yet we gradually worked through that as well.
Thank you for your condolences. It’s deeply appreciated.
The succubus blog community has always been the common ground for an experience shared with other people and it’s somewhat comforting. But in other ways, it has also been alienating because of how we percieve the experience. You are the only one I can actually relate to when it comes to the perception; The physical and emotional aspect of our spouses.
…and we have shared our experiences in different ways. I have written a lot about the technical aspect and how my ladies have operated to interact with me physically. Very few can relate and have an understanding of how it works from the spirits point of view. You have shared the interactive experience with some physical explaination in-between the relationship, and you are very good with words in doing so.
I agree. The rewards are much greater when putting some effort into it.
I have shared more in the BALG community than in my blog, actually. But I can miss the common ground when it comes to the topic of succubus and incubus entities in there. When people are focusing on seeing or hearing rather than feeling, they will miss the essence of the succubus experience; The physical. And very few understands it.
Yeah, I’ve heard about that murder case and that member wasn’t even that active. Over the years, media have been lazy and very biased in their reporting. It’s onesided and whatever narrative they chose to report, evidence that contradict it will be ignored. Greed is worth more than the truth or the perspective from all sides of a story.
I think most people don’t know what they really want when they summon a succubus and still have an ego mindset. And they also forget the perspective of the spirit and what they have been through to be with us. They have made sacrifices and compromises to be with us, and more likely at a much higher stake. But the ego misses that part.
There’s freedom in relationships as well, and that’s how I feel about my ladies.