Since my last post, I started off 2025 by taking a plunge into the ocean on New Years Day. It was invigorating, feeling that ice-cold surf crash into me over and over again. I stood out there for awhile with my arms outstretched to keep my balance, moving with the powerful ebb and flow of that unstoppable force of nature. The whole experience was rather symbolic of how I would approach the months ahead.

I stayed home this year. No going out, struggling or striving, trying to make my mark on the world. I was content to simply BE; to sway with the waves of life as they rolled in. Of course, there’s a large pre-programmed part of me that wants to keep slaving away for this civilization, but it’s noticeably weakened these days. I’ve seen too much, seen what a lie society actually is. The only noble thing left to be done is to withdraw and ride out the collapse. Living minimally, on less money than ever before, I find myself dangerously content. The specter of homelessness, or freezing in the dark, has lost much of its former bite. I’ve become good friends with the cold. My body welcomes the awakening that frost brings. Either way, becoming truly destitute would be solely my choice. I will always have plenty of places to hang my hat, and a loving demoness who insists that I keep on living – living in a comfortable-enough state for regular intimacy.
Probably the most heroic thing I’ve done this year was climbing down into our dug well and fishing out a dead mouse from its depths. My regular cold-exposure had paid off and I immersed myself in the 43-degree Fahrenheit water like it was nothing. Mission accomplished. The little hole has since been patched up.
Catherine and I continue to have sex nearly every day. It still feels wonderful, sometimes overpoweringly so. And she continues to stream those constant loving thoughts into my mind, daily reinforcing how she’s attracted to me. I’ve started to allow myself to see myself as she does. I’m not half-bad. Though the way she fetishizes me makes me blush – like I’m that hot, athletic, wild and free uncle that all the girls want to pin down but can’t… because I’m enamored with my sensual succubus demon. She’s got all kinds of endearing pet-names that she uses on me and I fall for them every time.
Year 14 has been a good one so far. My finances are still solid. I want for nothing. Yet I’m always trying to find new ways to cut back. I was even contemplating moving on to a different kind of website format to save more money – more of a static site – but I can’t bring myself to abandon the ease of use and granularity of control that WordPress affords. I’m always on the look-out for a better way of doing things, constantly optimizing my routine.
I need to do more with this website. I should at least share more dreams and interactions that I have with Catherine. Or maybe wax philosophical about religion and the occult. Though part of me feels like I’ve said enough and there is plenty of talking in the world already. Maybe I should stop caring about appearing so aloof and just let the words flow?

























